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different and the colors around me sharper than normal. I-he lights and sounds were disturbing to me. like [hr [first time. Suddenh. with my eyes closed I began to see images that appeared in screens. rzacth like IV~ or cinema screens. Ihesz screens were appearing in small size. and then thee would get bigger us I focused my attention on them. Suntetimes they appeared small and would then begin to grow, like I was walking in their direction, and sometimes they were going from left to right, in a continuous wac. Lhe images un the screens were movm~ in slow motion and were veq sharp and well defined. I saw [tees muting with the wind, a man with bells in his hands, carious landscapes with mountains and the sunset .At this time I was a little nauseated, and when the doctors asked me to stand up for some tests. L ~ omited. From all of the hundreds of images I saw this day. I recognized onlc two: the firs[, an image of m. selfus a child. static like a photo. This image began to approach me and get bigger. but ~ome[hing in the room happened and I opened my ryes. losing the image. Ilrr second image I recognized was' one of some horses dancing in a circus. It was a CC show that I had seen two loss before. Che rime seemed [o ,o cm yuickh, bemuse after about tour hours I m me mind I. thee [old me I had neken Ibugaine nine hours earlier! It was cerr difficult fur me to speak m kinglish or in Spanish. I was onh able to speak in my native language. At [his time the images stared to appear at a slower rare and for another nvu hours I saw onh screens with no images un [hem. Above I n- I I hours after [he beginning of the e.eperiment then disappeared. l ate verc well and stayed uwal.e all night long, falling asleep onh about' ..-A,bl, ulrnost ,y hours after the medication had been atLninistered. During the night I had some insights about me life and about [he things I realized I was doim, wrong. I stayed all the Following day ten tired_ sleep}, but ern happy and relayed. in a wac 1 neczr was before. nth Suc - 'Omeikg I therapemic dose l I~he first ~ hours were ,imilur to the lust time: phu[ophobia and a bad sensation with little nuises- .atter chat the images began [o appear, m a slower rate than the other nme. fherz were less Images. but I was recognizing all of them us part u[ my childhood I saw myself playing m me father's t~rnt. riding a motorcycle, playing with a cousin, feeding a fish and other things. I saw some recent irnagcs_ like one of me father, laughing m the living room of nn house. This happened about a ~ car ago. I understood that I had a happy childhood and there was nu one to blame fur nrv addiction. onh myself I felt [heir lour eommg frorn my parents and relatives. I was feeling the sunre time distortion that I feh the other due. ,utd after mam hours I suddenh had en insight. It was thus my mind and the universe were the same thing, and that all the people m the universe and all [hires in the uric erne arc onh one. I ,uw mum mistakes I was doing in my life. so mum attitudes I zuuld nut fiat r. .utd dos helped me a, decide cep strongly [hat I will nzc er use Urmenil cream. Vow I can see ten clrarh that I dolt need Demerol to lice my life_.and I feel better ifl don't use rt_ Dunng the first 3 hours ?[ter taking [he Ibugaine I vomited ~1 or ~ times, ulwtns when I tried to neat e. Iwas able to sleep about 1 AM. and to cat onh about 9 A1v1 the following due. I aw akcned Icrling weak, tired and drowse _ as the hours were ,_uing. I ,kpt a lot ;utd began ur feel better and m [he muming of the folluwin_ due I was nonnul Ditterences in day-bv-day life after the e~periencr I returttrd to iuv normal life with absoluteh no cravings, with better appetite than he[orz. and highh self-confident. Now I can see differences m some aspects of my personalia. things are changed Fur e~anrple, I used to avoid driving at night, because it reminded me oC a cnr uccidzm I had ~ ears ago. tiow I can drive am-time, dac or nigh[, without ansien. I'm sure that this is caused by Lbogame. because now fm not the same ven an~iuus person I was. Pm not us shy us I used to be. tau. It's easier now to contradict people when 1 think [hey are wrong. and to make [hem know what I want and what I think. I used [u accept all that other people said onh to .ivoid a discussion, even when I was sure